So many thoughts running through my mind these last few weeks!
Now that the worst is behind me, I find myself thinking, “holy cow, I literally went through a life changing battle the last 2.5 years!”
While I was going through these last 2.5 years, I couldn’t focus too much on how difficult things were as I needed to focus on getting through the next surgery/procedure/hospital stay.
At times I felt so isolated and the feeling that time was standing still was abundant. As I was fighting the good fight, life around me went on as if nothing was happening. That’s just how life works. This is what I keep coming back to.
My aunt was just diagnosed with leukemia and is fighting to get through it, and as she is battling each day, life keeps moving. Time doesn’t stand still.
As I was getting my mammogram, the technician told me she thought it was inspiring to see that I still made time to come in. I thought that was so odd. Yes, I still have a long road ahead of me, but life keeps moving on and I need to take care of myself.
We all need to take care of ourselves, regardless of what is happening in our world. Some days will be tougher than others – and trust me, I get it. With every fiber of my being, I get it.
I told you – random thoughts folks!
Physical and occupational therapy started and I am making progress! PROGRESS, friends! It is hard! At times I feel frustrated but other times I feel as though I am kicking butt! I really need to focus on the task at hand and talk to myself inside my head when I am willing my leg to move. This is what I have been waiting for – the path to recovery. Walking, driving, working, etc., again. I knew there would be times of frustration & tears, but that’s OK!
When I first get up in the morning, I am very stiff! My hip is thinking, “whoa, I need to move!” Once I start moving around, it helps. By the end of PT or OT, my hip and knee are sore and my leg is oh so tired. It’s the good tired though, that feeling of accomplishment on most days!
Before I broke my leg, I had a very pronounced gait. As I have no muscle memory in this leg, I am learning how to walk again after 2.5 years, and guess what? My gait is so much better than before! It takes concentration when I walk as I tell myself, “heel, toe, bend your knee, don’t drag your foot … heel, toe, bend your knee, don’t drag your foot.” It’s working!
A better gait? What?! This my friends is another silver lining in this journey! AMAZING!!!
I will have in home PT for a few more weeks and then I will transition to a rehab center as an outpatient. Believe it or not, I am looking forward to going to the rehab center because I believe they will be able to better assist me in getting me to walk and drive again.
It is unfortunate that I am not eligible to be an inpatient, as I feel as though the rehab center has more resources available to them that will allow me to do more exercises, etc., to get me on my feet. When you are an inpatient, they spend more time working with you. The rehab facility that I will go to is an acute care facility that I have been told does amazing work which inspires me!
I am in the home stretch and I can do this!
Life … it goes on around you while you are fighting the good fight. Be strong, be brave, and keep going. The end result will be satisfying because you will have worked your behind off to achieve it!
This post is dedicated to my Aunt Kathy. Keep fighting! You can do this! Sending so much love your way each and every day! I love you!
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Until next time, be well and go out and do a random act of kindness.